Stuck In A Moment

I was listening to this song by U2......Stuck in A Moment.....it reflected my life right now. It all came back to me...it did....The song says its just a moment and this time will pass!!
I need to be friends with myself first...yes, thats the problem. I don't like my own company too much! So I sought solace in music and writing...its helping...for that I'm glad!
The cold has come back...metaphorically speaking...incoherence surrounding my thoughts....randomness the need of the moment....a search to find that one whole....what is it?? Unanswered questions pester my mind...or is it my soul? Is there such a thing as soul? Thats one unanswered question.....Insanity spurring on the periphery of my existence...Words flowing...not sure if they make sense....But then I have stopped pondering about that......Looking within for some precise answers...why am I here? In this unkown place? A dream unrealized? To prove things to others or maybe to myself...that I am strong...that I don't need a social milieu to survive...how wrong I was..how wrong indeed!

You are still reading this.....my mind is full of questions right now and expressing them to myself is the best option...because no one else understands....no one ever will....these are my dreams...my purpose?? maybe not entirely, but to an extent yes....or maybe not...See how confused I am? I want to find answers....the quest continues......